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Umm....yeah [Monday February 6th, 2006 at 2:37pm] [ mood | Boucin off Da walls ] [ music | Sugar Ray - RPM ] THE USED LYRICS "Let It Bleed" This poison's my intoxication I broke the needle off in my skin picked the scabs and picked the bleeding and assumed that it was all in vain A positive scab that's never healing Calloused hit me in the face A burning bridge that's so misleading Poison's more potent now with the flame Let it bleed Take the red for what it's worth woah Watch the fire Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time If you feel like dying you might wanna sing The fire department couldn't drown the city They didn't even try to wash it clean And what did you think that I was sober? Put me out cause I'm on fucking fire A positive scab that's never healing Regret that I kept this clean The most that I can do for you is keep on lying It's not a lie if you can let it sing Let it bleed Take the red for what it's worth woah Watch the fire Fill your lungs with smoke for the last time If you feel like dying you might wanna sing! Ohoh you might wanna sing Ahaha you might wanna sing Hahah you might wanna sing Hahahaha sing! You might wanna sing! You might wanna sing! You might wanna sing or scream at... This poison's my intoxication I broke the needle off in my skin Picked the scabs and picked the bleeding yeah assumed that it was all in vain Let it bleed Take the red for what it's worth, woah Watch the fire Mamma fill your lungs with smoke for the last time If you feel like dying If you feel like dying If you feel like dying, You might wanna sing Hahaha You might wanna sing Haha You might wanna sing Ha you might wanna sing or scream at... 4 comments|post comment

Hey [Saturday January 14th, 2006 at 2:44pm] [ mood | uncomfortable ] [ music | Mr. White Keys - Cherry Poppin Daddies ] Hey everyone. First off I just want to say! I MISS YOU TOO KARA!!! God...lol... I wovs ya! Anyways, nothing new here. I did decide to stay at pound. All of you have seen me around. me and wes are doing ok i guess. Don't see much of him anymore. I wish I could at least see him once or twice a week but, ah well. What can you do? Maybe its good that we don't see eachother like we use to...I know I know thats sounds really mean but, his family doesn't even want us together? What about that shit!? But, I love him...and by hell...his family will have to put up some fight. I don't want him to like never see them or anything, but damn..let him be happy! Right? Anyways guys, I am going to get off of here. I will hope to post soon! 2 comments|post comment

Whats new? [Sunday January 1st, 2006 at 2:20pm] [ mood | Had to much fun last night!! ] [ music | The Used - Let It Bleed ] So, whats new with me? Umm..lets see? I believe I will finish school at Pound only cuz all my shit got messed up. Umm...still kinda bouncing around houses, thats nothing new. Umm..I had a great new year! I hope everyone else did too! I got to give wes a mohawk for new years! He is so sexy with eye liner. Punk is definitly his genre! Umm...I have been doing better since my cyst I had. I can't wait to go to the NIN concert! Thats going to rock my socks! Umm...yeah..thats about it. Nothing else! Love ya and talk at ya later! He so sexy with eye liner! Its wes!! We so cute, me with my tounge ring, him with his eye liner! 4 comments|post comment

MY NEW BACKGROUND [Sunday December 25th, 2005 at 1:00am] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Pretty Piece of Flesh - One Inch Punch ] I love it...its awesome! Thats it...nothing more! 1 comment|post comment

Hey, for thoses that were worried... [Saturday December 10th, 2005 at 9:33am] [ mood | sick ] [ music | All mixed up -311 ] Hey everyone, I just thought I would come on here and tell everyone whats been wrong with me lately. I found out yesturday that the pains I have been having and such are from a golf ball size [7X5 cm] big ovarian cyst. It is sitting on top of my left overy and they could not even see it in the ulterasound i had done. They wanted to hospitalize me all weekend but the pain was not that bad so they let me go. But, I might have to go into surgery because if it just rupter on its own there are risks that are against me. Wish me luck guys cuz on monday at 9 am i will know whats going down. Well, here my update...good one uh? Well...talk to everyone later! 7 comments|post comment

Thrusday Night...wasn't one at the Roxburry I will tell ya that... [Sunday November 13th, 2005 at 8:58am] [ mood | Shaky ] [ music | You Wouldn't Believe - 311 ] Well, what happened this thursday was something no one saw coming. Matt Howard and Michel Hicks broke into our house and stole $500 dollars in games and an x-box [all together]. Sold it off and what have you. We have it all back in our house but my room is left to check cuz they broke into it too. And just so you guys know they are a bunch of fuck heads and no body should trust them [if anyone from pound or wise co. for that matter reads this] They have stolen from a shit load of people in the past week. And, if any reads this that they have contact with tell them this, Let your Piece of shit parents place charges on my aunt. My aunt that has covered your asses! Watch what fuckin' happens! Thank you. 1 comment|post comment

PICTURE TIME! [Thursday November 10th, 2005 at 4:35pm] [ mood | Scary thoughts in my head ] [ music | Loser - Beck ] Ok, here are some pics...you might like them! Enjoy! http://pg.photos.yahoo.com/ph/lindse90/my_photos Yep, thats all of this post Love Shadow but Linz did beat the fuck out of this one chick...it was fucking funny!!! It was Re-God-Damn_Dic_U-Lus 5 comments|post comment

My Total Enlightment [Saturday November 5th, 2005 at 10:07am] [ mood | cold ] [ music | Goodbye to you - The Used ] Ok, someone clue me in on why I can't just realize everything at once? I have to realize them randomly? Ok, well I'm kinda glad that all this shit went down with Wes, because see I have realized some things. I have realized that I really don't belong in the big LB. I don't belong with any that should remotely live around here. I belong back at my home, back at te beach...back with the people that never stabbed me in the back! I never had this many issues when I lived there! It was usually all good shit that happened. But, for the past two and a half years that I have been I have constantly wanted to SHOOT MYSELF IN THE FACE!!! I have had nothing but pain, hurt, and abuse! So I have decided that as soon as I can get the money I am getting the hell out of here. I will probally get my GED and move the fuck back! Fuck a bunch of this place and everyone in it! There is going to be the select few that I will miss, but hey, as soon as I get my car and get all that shit straight I will drive out here and visit or pick them up on holidays or whatever. But, I-myself do not need to be here any longer than I have to be. That simple, short and sweet. So, as soon as possible I will back at "home" hanging with Damien, Jenee, Laylia, Matt, Josh, Tj, Jester, Shad, and everyone else. And who knows, I might even strike up something with my ex Justin Rose...he's a still a virgin, he has never done me wrong, and plus HE ACTUALLY CARES AND WONT LIE TO ME! Well, I am done ranting this morning. I have shead enough tears in my sleep and and done with all this shit. That simple...its all clear now. It just took one more person to prove this...how sad... Love Shadow post comment

YO! [Friday November 4th, 2005 at 9:44pm] [ mood | I have no idea... ] [ music | I'm a Fake - The Used ] Hey everyone, yep yet again i am not dead. I thought you guys would have started thinking that but guess what?!?!?! I"M NOT!!! Anyways...umm...lets see...UPDATING TIME!!! Well, still in the big LB! Yeah, it sucks....I WANT THE HELL OUT!!! Umm...me and Wes broke up but, its all chill. To: Wes = Stand up dude and go get your happiness!!! WooT WooT!! But, the funny thing is, is that he said if things didn't work out that he might come back to me. I said i would probally take him back. But, umm...i'm not holding my breath nor would I place great thought in it. Umm...going to a concert on sunday; 3 Doors Down, SilverTide, & Shinedown. Free ticket...not turning it away. Umm...lets see....waiting on Landon, Matt, & Josh to get there sexy asses here!!! Save me from Boredom!!! Umm...lets see....wow...my life is so dull...isn't it? Umm...wow...umm....are you guys still reading this at this point? Wow, if you are you are a LOSER TOO!! I AM NOT ALONE!! YAY!!! Ok...anyways... Ok, well nothing else...but if anything comes to me you best be bettin' i be-a postin'!!! [Wow, that was hick if I have ever typed it!] Ok...I'm going...bye bye kiss kiss!!!!! Love Shadow P.S. So no to THE CLAP!!!! [Someone out there knows what I am talking about!!!! HAHA!!!...God i need a life....*hands god a dime*] 2 comments|post comment

*giggles* I'm Back! [Sunday August 28th, 2005 at 9:18am] [ mood | tired ] [ music | none sadly...to early ] Hey everyone time for an updates...wow don't ya just love how i will do an update every MONTH or so! hehe. Anyways... Still in Pound and still working at china garden. Hopefully I will soon start another job so i have more money for things. me and tim are threw forever...fuck a bunch of his shit. I have found someone new though. His name is Wes, and he works with me. He is really sweet and kinda looks like an anime character! hehe. All the better right ^_~. He's very kind and all that jazz. I will soon hopefully have a pic of me and him on here soon. Oh and he's a guitar player...i love watching him play. Well, its really early and me and him have to leave soon from ky and go back to pound, like my post!? Short and sweet. Gotta go guys...love ya all! 6 comments|post comment

FUCK! FUCK! MOTHER MOTHER FUCK! [Sunday July 31st, 2005 at 6:16pm] [ mood | Pissed and hyper..oddly enough ] [ music | Out Comes the Evil - Lords Of Acid ] Hey guys! Last post for another god knows how long. Umm..lets eee where to begin?   Ok, I have re-thought my life on relationships...GOD I AM STUPID! Thats all I could come up with. Umm...went to rocky horror again! I was GENDER CONFUSED!! Wait *thinks* isn't that everyday? HEHE Anyways, leaving Va Beach morrow morning. Mom thinks she is going to contuine this controling bullshit over me...well...SHE IS SO FUCKING WRONG!!! HA! Not for very much longer cuz as soon as I get back to pound I am getting the key to my door and I am not fucking talking to her. And she is to never come up and see me. But, reguardless of now next summer will be the last time she ever fucking hears from me unless she calls me and apologizes for all this shit. I can't believe i let it go on this long....*smacks her head* OH! Like my new journal colors? ^_~ Hotness uh? I love them. Umm...whatelse is new...nothing much. I will see most of you soon and I willt he miss the rest of you! Love ya guys! ~~Shadow~~ Pics from the first Rocky Horror Picture Show I Went to! <-ME! <-Me & Phoenix..pretty uh? <-Obviously <-Janis, Ernie, & Joe 6 comments|post comment

Angel Of MY Salvation [Friday July 22nd, 2005 at 12:58am] [ mood | Over Joyed!!! ] [ music | Dir En Grey - Gessekai ]   Angel Of My Salvation Lost and lonely in the rain, shivering and cold. Trying to ignore this pain, trying to be bold. The rain stops all together, then I look up to you. Everything seems to be better, inside your eyes of blue. An umbrella you hold over me, you lift me up and whipe my tear. You spoke softly and made me see, there's nothing left to fear. For you to take me in like an angel from above, I can only offer you my heart, soul, & love... To: Joe W. Savannah Chester Copyright ©2005 Savannah Chester   This is my update everyone. As most of you know I met this man by the name of Joe. He is wonderful and has actually taken me for me and allowed me to vent upon him the pain i have felt over mark and other shit. To him I wrote this poem, Thank you joe for helping me and being there. Can't wait to read the one you wrote about me! ^^ Love Ya Hun!   Well, I know this is a short post but hopefully I see or talk to you guys very soon! Love you guys!!! 11 comments|post comment

Shit [Tuesday July 12th, 2005 at 12:58pm] [ mood | Um...To Happy maybe? ] [ music | I Want Candy - G.C ] <form action='http://memegen.net/viewmeme.pl?meme=1074624146' method='POST'><table style='font-family : Arial, Verdana, Helvetica, sans-serif; border-collapse: collapse; border: 1px solid black;' cellspacing='0' cellpadding='2' align='center'><tr><th colspan=2  bgcolor='#000000'><font color='#DDDD88'>Your Suicide.. by <a href='http://www.livejournal.com/users/tragicwaste/'><font color='#DDDD88'>Konstantine</font></a></font></th></tr><tr><td bgcolor='#333333' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #FFFFFF;'>Your Name/Username</span></td><td bgcolor='#DDDDAA' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #000000;'><input type='text' name='Your Name/Username' value='Savannah' size='20'></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor='#333333' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #FFFFFF;'>Favorite Number?</span></td><td bgcolor='#DDDDAA' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #000000;'><input type='text' name='Favorite Number?' value='14' size='20'></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor='#333333' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #FFFFFF;'>Favorite Color?</span></td><td bgcolor='#DDDDAA' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #000000;'><input type='text' name='Favorite Color?' value='blue' size='20'></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor='#333333' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #FFFFFF;'>Gender?</span></td><td bgcolor='#DDDDAA' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #000000;'><select name='Gender?'><option SELECTED>Female<option>Male<option>Undecided<option>Both</select></span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor='#333333' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #FFFFFF;'>How will you commit suicide?</span></td><td bgcolor='#DDDDAA' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #000000;'>You will jump off of the nearest, highest building</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor='#333333' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #FFFFFF;'>How many tries will it take?</span></td><td bgcolor='#DDDDAA' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #000000;'>93</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor='#333333' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #FFFFFF;'>When will you commit suicide?</span></td><td bgcolor='#DDDDAA' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #000000;'>May 27, 2009</span></td></tr><tr><td bgcolor='#333333' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #FFFFFF;'>What will your suicide note say?</span></td><td bgcolor='#DDDDAA' style='border: 1px solid black;'><span style='color: #000000;'>This broken heart will never mend, so never shall I breathe again</span></td></tr><tr><td colspan=2 align='center' bgcolor='#000000'><input type='submit' value='Fill Out Your Answers and Try it!'></td></tr><tr><td colspan=2 align='center' bgcolor='#000000'><font size='-1' color='#FFFFFF'><a href='http://memegen.net/'><font color='#DDDD88'>Quiz created with MemeGen</font></a>!</font></td></tr></table><input type='hidden' name='un' value='Konstantine'><input type='hidden' name='meme' value='1074624146'></form>   2 comments|post comment

Prepare myself... [Tuesday July 12th, 2005 at 11:51am] [ mood | Enlightened!!! ] [ music | The Anthem - G.C. ] Hello everyone, I know its been a long time since my last post so here it is! Ok, well on the six, last wed. Me and Landon loaded up and went to pound where my buddy spencer stayed with us till that sunday. We just got back yesturday. Yeah, FUCK BEING IN A CAR WITH MY MOM FOR 8 HOURS! Ok, but on another note, Landon and Spencer both brought up some good point with me. Both saying that they hate sitting back watching people destroy me and ripe on own soul out, stomp on it, and hand it to me. They say I don't deserve it...but as everyone knows, IT'S ALWAYS MY FAULT!!!! So, here is what I have to say now. To whom ever and to MARK, [if you ever read this]. I am sick of giving up everythign and fighting for what I believe will make me happy. Getting my hopes up only to have them shatter before me. Denver leaves me for a BJ, Derek leaves me for a BJ, Todd because, well i dunno actually, Justin [hail] cheats on me the whole relationship and hite me, tim hit me and almost cheats on me, Donnie leave me for some nasty bitch, and well, Mark just tells me fuck off for whatever reason. You know what guys, I am sick of it and I'll be damned if I take this shit anymore! I fight to the bitter end and always get shit for it. So to hell with it. I am goign to do whatever makes me happy and I'll be damned if I keep getting hurt! I am sick of stupid bullshit and I am sick of doing everything I can and loosing anyways. I don't think I am the best thing ever but I am prob. the only g/f that would give up so much and do everything I can do someone. So to Mark, your in check. If you ever want to be friends or whatever you are to apologize [if you are such a man and care as much as you claim]. Cuz that was down right dirty and I'll be damned if I shed anymore tears for you as of now. I waited 2 1/2 years to move back because I thought you would take me back so fuck it. I am staying in pound one more year to grad and I hope you lay at night with whatever nasty bitch [cuz i heard they be nasty] and realize what the hell you lost and who's soul you destroied. Just let that soak in a bit there buddy! I hope you have a great life! Also, to AMBER WELLS, because I don't like you. Me and spencer fucked and it was great! He said I was better than you! Ha! Take that hooker! And trust me, if I was 18 I would beat your ass just for hurting him like that cuz I know you would go all bitch and throw my ass in jail. FUCK YOU AMBER! Well, guys, I am in va beach for the last month of summer, and I hope to enjoy it. So, I hope to see you guys around and have fun. WISH YOU WERE HERE SPENCER! Love ya guys! Later! Love Savannah 19 comments|post comment

Umm, yeah.. [Friday June 24th, 2005 at 2:57pm] [ mood | confused ] [ music | Simple Plan - Shut Up ] Ok, here's the latest on me. Ok moms like, "I have seen how you have ran around sicne you have been here. You'r staying in pound!" And well, its the summer...so thus I AM GOING TO RUN AROUND! But, my debate is that the only reasons I would stay here anymore would be for Landon & Damien. I mean, I believe that I have fucked up so bad with mark its pointless to contuine to wish and hurt....you guys know how it is. I mean, I could move out here...mom can't stop me. [i prob. would anyways] but, I really don't want my moving to be in vein and hopeless...I dunno...Any advice guys? 7 comments|post comment

Umm..sad news for most of you. [Wednesday June 22nd, 2005 at 2:32pm] [ mood | SURPRISED!!!! ] [ music | Third Eye Blind - London ] Hey guys, yeah well time to update. Well, I have just found out from my mom that i am moving back here to va beach. Yeah, most of you will hate this idea and some fo you will be happy. Yeah, well I am happy the only thing is I have to study really hard and pass. yeah...i am retarded. So anyways...yeah but I am saddened by this idea. The orignal reason for me moving abck was for mark. he said that would have been the only way he would date me. Well, he hates me right now so i dunno. But, whatever...time will tell. Till then i am just going to hang out with my friends and chill. Yeah, thast all I have been doing anyways. So yeah...pics coming soon by the way of my new piercing. HEH!!! YEAH!!! LATER!!! 25 comments|post comment

OMG!!!! [Sunday June 19th, 2005 at 5:06pm] [ mood | ecstatic ] [ music | Kick The can - DDR ] Hey guys...I just got back from the broadwalk with Steve and you will never guess what I got done!!! I just got my Labret done!!! OMG!! It is so wicked!!! I love it...OMG!!! So yeah....i will have a pick on here soon!! Mom hates it...I don't care, everyone else loves it!!! ITS THE BEST!!! OK!! LAter guys!!! 12 comments|post comment

Ok, I'm a DUMBASS [Sunday June 19th, 2005 at 12:08am] [ mood | depressed ] [ music | Captain Jack - Only You ] Ok...here's the 411 now. Ok, so...I asked landon to talk to mark since mark will actually talk to him. And i found out that mark has actually been jumped and had a few of his friends jumped and he had knives pulled on him and shit. So i feel realy bad for actually telling him i thought he was playin me. He is mad at me now and probally hate me. I feel so stupid and so much like a dumbass. I have a new website if anyone wants to check it out..by the way...: http://www.freewebs.com/tripp_shadow : but yeah...I am retarded and crying...I am sorry mark if you read this...I love you... Sakiu 10 comments|post comment

HOLA!!!! [Thursday June 16th, 2005 at 6:31pm] [ mood | EVIL SUN BURN OF DOOM!!!!!!!!! ] [ music | Cranberries - Zombie ] Hey guys! Long time no post!!! Ok...lets see whats up? Ok, well lets see, i got to va beach on saturday. Got in the hot tub and chilled then broke up with tim [which has turned on me with my OWN reasons!!!] Then right after mark came over. Yeah, all tipsy and shit. We hung out then he kissed me which lead to us making out...[ah it was great]. Then sunday me & him went and saw Mr. & Mrs. Smith [great movie btw], where we cuddled and shit. Then I went and hung out with my buddy landon on monday and mark & his friend charlie came over...and well...yeah...they didn't see me & mark for awhile ^_~^_~. So i stayed then night at landon's then went home, went to casa's and hung out with Spin, her boy chris, and my buddy Jester. Then went back home and found out mark & landon were waiting on em to come back over. So mark came & got me and we all spent the night over there. Its was so nice. But mark snores!!! lol...it was bad...but, i didn't care, it was nice to just sleep next to him again. Then wed. me & landon went to the mall and hung out where we met damien after he finally woke up after 5 pm. Then me & damien went back to my house where my buddy stitch came over but i couldn't go out with her so we stayed up till damien left and kelly, haley, mac, sid, & Steve showed up. Then todayme, damien, haley, mom, steve, kelly, sid, & mac went to teh beach were I got burnt [not to bad though] then tonight i am going to this club called Peabody's with my GREAT buddy Kristina!! So yeah, there my vacation so far in a nut shell. Yep... Well, with nothing else to talk about I am goign to go chill with damine who is next to me singing Zombie...hehe....GO DAMIEN!!! Love ya guys...Later Sakiu 5 comments|post comment

Umm...I have no idea [Sunday June 12th, 2005 at 5:19pm] [ mood | weird ] [ music | Soil - Breaking Me Down ] Hey guys its time for a new update....so here it is.   Well, me and tim broke up. I left him actually, but with good reasons. Most of you know from my conversations with you about it and asking for your advice. But, what pisses me off is he tries to make me feel bad and make it sound like i have done something so horrifice and bad, like i never gave enough in our relationship and took him for granted. Well, not true. The ones that knew about all this know why.  I am in va beach right now for a month. What fun!! Umm, mark called me and came over last night. We hung out with his two friends charlie and cody. They were all trashed...it was funny as hell!!! Mom, Randy, and Pam [neighbor here] all went out, or rather mom & randy met pam at this club called The Clubhouse. Mom threw up and then came home trashed and pam and her did karaoke! Good times. Well, I really have nothing else to speak on at this moment so I am going to go. Much love guys... Sakiu 1 comment|post comment

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